- The way you wrap your arm tightly around my neck when I hold you. you are 10.5 months old and you have done it since you were tiny and show no signs of stopping.
- Your heavy body. You are so heavy and somehow my body has adapted and it no longer hurts. It is easier to carry you around and do things one handed.
- The ease and joy of nursing you so long…. in the same breath it is a burden and headache. It is adding to your separation anxiety! You will not stop and I have a hard time pushing you, although I am ready. I. AM. READY.
- You have 6 teeth at 10.5 months.
- You had a horribly clogged tear duct and had to have surgery on your tiny little eye at way too young of an age. It was so quick and horrible and easy all at the same time.
- When you were born, you looked like John with you saggy skin and broad shoulders and hairline. As you grew you looked like Matthew with your brown eyes and your dimples and your ever increasing chubby rolls. I would catch glimpses of both of them in you until lately…. you are growing into your own look and will clearly be your own little person. Having 3 boys that look nothing alike is interesting.
- Your laugh, especially when I tickle you.
- Your lack of interest in crawling or walking. You rolled over at 3 months! WHAT? But then did not crawl until around 9.5 months. You are 10.5 months now, and will pull up to your knees, but show no interest in progressing really.
- You HATE to lay down (in the mornings especially) and get your diaper changed. Right now a musical toy works the best for distraction.
- The way you need me. Although right now I feel locked down, I know one day I will miss it. I only take a shower with you locked in the bathroom with me; I put you in the dry tub next to me to potty so you won't crawl up on a dirty potty floor; I eat when you eat; you cry when anyone takes you from my arms; you snuggle up t.i.g.h.t. when a stranger talks to you; I stay with in sight distance if you are on the floor. I also encourage your independence whenever I can, and purposefully build in challenges during our days, but things are hard right now. They are really hard. I thought it was a passing phase….
- Your love of baths. Thank God.
- You make it easy to not set an alarm. Once you started sleeping through the night, 5:00am was my new wake up call. You will go back down after I feed you though, so I can choose to wake up or not. Literally it is between 4:50 and 5:10, EVERY. DAY. UGH!
- You fuss at every single night and nap time. Every. Single. One. I let you. I have told myself you just have to talk yourself to sleep. It is what it is….
- Your pure love and joy for both your brothers. They hung the moon. Period.
- You are a pretty
